Rachel GuerreroI feel I would like to reiterate my goal in making these articles. Maybe this will help me stay aligned and offer credibility for my purpose. I believe with more background information, It may be easier to understand my messages as I realized my “about me”, is very superficial and brief. To explain myself more thoroughly, I am a survivor of many things. Growing up, I experienced a very traumatic childhood as I was raised mainly by my mother who experienced severe mood swings and her own PSTD outburst. Her being divorced twice, I felt a lot of pressure to choose between parents and after much turmoil in the home, I had to care for myself at age 7. Experience both physical and verbal abuse in my home led to extreme stress and a poor image of myself. Having little to no direction as an older child/tween, I developed eating and anxiety disorders. This later transformed into PTSD, emetophobia, agoraphobia, panic attacks, and now, auto-immune disease. While I feel it was unfair to be offered early childhood experiences that have led to a debilitating body, now that I have it, I must decide what the hell to do with it. Many emotions surface lately as I reflect on the causes for my issues. Anger, shame, and poor maintenance of personal relationships have shown to be the most apparent. Now it is time to undo my trauma in hopes to heal my body and live a meaningful life. My goal is to retrain my nervous system to have less intense reactions through exposure therapy and simply learning more about it. While I will be writing how to maintain better relationships, how to work out your body, and how to grow in self-love, my main message is how to do these things through love. How to learn to backpack, travel, preform confidently in whatever it is, and to grow into every dream that little girl wanted to live out, but this time with self-love and self-acceptance. It is to develop that inner mother’s voice that coaches you through life and is a quiet, but confident voice that reminds you that you are loved, capable, and most importantly, safe. These articles are meant to help you re-work that inner voice and guide yourself through life in a new light. Please either directly contact me or comment things you may want to hear in our future. This is a safe space.
With love, Miss Rachel